Unlike my other addictions, alcohol wasn't ever hard for me to quit. Still, it was hard not to go back to. My drinking started in high school and lasted for only a few days at a time. It wasn't something I did all the time, however, due to the times in which I did use it, it was the most brutal of my addictions. It was almost a punishment to myself. I drank when I hurt, I drank when I felt I had done something wrong, and I drank when hating myself wasn't enough. I drank the most during my senior year of high school. Everything seemed to be crumbling in on top of me and I didn't feel as though I had any way out. Drinking turned everything off- it made me numb. All of this said, I wouldn't say that alcohol is bad. I would say that if you are known to have any mental illnesses than you should definitely limit yourself. I have numerous good memories where alcohol played a part but it's the severity of the bad ones that keep me cautious.
